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Friday, December 29, 2006
8:20 PM

going to meet amanda later at causeway! : D

one thing i've been learning is to not let my emotions rule over me. which has been something tt have been so real and its a big struggle. and after gonig thru so much, i struggle to praise God at times. i see myself slowly being outcast. was doing QT ytd and was on the issue of fear. (altho its not the main thing of the QT but i felt tt it is, for now.) fear.

and i wanna to say tt i really understand when ppl says they find it hard to share and be vulnerable infront of pple. for the past 1year i felt tt way. sharing and being open have not been easy. know why? because when you share, ppl judges you. (okay, depends on who). im not pin-pointing at anyone but well, ppl judge. i've been feeling like tt for the longest time and its not because i dont want to share my problems with you but cause you judges. you judge.

only God can judge me*

fear. fear of being left alone. fear of losing to others. fear of losing pple ard you.fear of rejection. fear of uncertainties. fear of being outcast/ unoticed. fear of darkness. fear of knowing your own self. fear*

i dont need to impress anyone but dont judge me when you dont even know me.
yongling's not gonna cry.