Tuesday, February 27, 2007
life have been gettting to me man.
and life been fading away like nobody business.
as much as i have alot to say and alot of shout out thoughts, my vocab just doesnt allowed it to be form into sentences. i just hope that one day, when we look back, we will come to the understanding tt His plan is forever so perfect, and you know, we can never understand. and as i look back, i hope i can say, i struggled and wrestle much, and ive learn to love and to be loved,to forgive and to be forgived. ive fought the good fight, ive run the race, ive kept my faith.
in each situations, i know God has something to teach me. i know, and i hope i can be obedient enough to listen and to do what he says, i hope the assurance tt He knows best and things will get better in His control will sink deeply in me.
You are the savior, im the sinner.
sinner.
where can i flee from your presence...
when i let you go, a part of me died.
Labels: life as you called it.
Monday, February 26, 2007
okay, i know this is a bit lag, haha. but i still wnt to blog abt it. (:
actually love.
1stly, of course, i want to talk abt the committee :D
its been a good experience man, tho there have been many silent tension, we learnt from each other and we work things out (: im so glad to have this opportunity to serve with you all, really. <333
SARAH: hey twin, silen tension sounds really familiar eh? without sarah and her C-ness, i think planning wouldnt be effective and efficient! we are called to be and gathering ppl to it is simply fun and learning from each of them is great right? never regret agreeing to take up this challenge and serving with you.
NAT: hahahahahahaa, okay stop laughing (: nat, she's so funny, she's really nice. you can see from situations tt her expression changes and even when ppl cant get her point and you sense her slowy getting pissed, she is still nice. cause she always explain herself nicely and patiently across so tt we all can understand. cheeers dear.
VERA: its been another experience serving with you, and we are just too similiar. learning to be vulnerable and humble.
RENFRED: (: you know, without renfred's D-ness, things can be quite delay and without his thoughtfulness, we really can forget alot of small small details. and of course his constant reminder keeps us going! and i really appreciate hisconcern for each of us, he will reminds us tt its dinner time when we are so busy with work, he will provides ways to make things better when i( yes, me) get so screwed up with the whole deco thing. (:
ELLIOT: hey. you toille (: i remb i told you before that you nv once talk to me for the past years in church. haha, and yes im thnakful for this chance to work with you. elliot is yes patient and he is can be really calm even when the team is not agreeing upon each other point. haha, and we always get him to explain each other point, cause he can do it really calmy and seriously, of course clearly. and i so so love the CD you made :D
SHUNLI: this guy, man, i think he really can lessen the tension and make us all burst out in laughter lah. and next time when you see him silent and deep in thoughts, he must thinking of how to make us laugh. (: and he is really efficient in doing things, he is serious in his work lah, and haha, i dont know what to say, but he is really fun to work with. i can see his CG members nodding in agreement (:
and you know i really cant help but post this pic of my dear guy members, they are so ________ (fill in for youselves. ) HAHA (:
pretty aint they ? (:
the event was great, but the planning and learning process from each of them is greater. love it all (:
and actually love...is God dying on the cross for our sins, while we were still sinner.
let that truth sinks in you.
yongling will grow to be a Big girl, that dont whines.
Labels: actually loveeee.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
okay. im back to work. and yes, thanks hannah for editing your recent post, heh. you saved yourself from chopper (:4more working days and you will see me bugging ppl, hahas. no lah. anyways, working does change a person, in a way. as much as yongling knows she hates to grow up, she knows she has to. alot of things tt i used to hold onto, i have to learn to let go and look ahead. the fun, laughters, hangouts. to be independent, to think abt the future and think abt life. its no longer happy-go-lucky kinda when all you do is play and think abt future when only future comes. i guess the age of 18 is a stepping stone for alot of us, to grow to be more mature and think and speaks in wisdom. be it a working life, JC life, schooling life, we get mould in diff ways. for the past 18 years, we made mistakes and slowly learn from there, its sort of like trial and errors. till now as we start to be more on our own, we kinda of know whats right and whats the better next step to take. its nv easy and we still do make mistakes, but its a learning process and i shall call it the refining process.started reading this book, "big girls dont whine." (and yes daryl, big girl.) and how it talks abt as much as we yearn to be a big girl, we still carry on our little girls behavior of whining. and you know what, so what if we whine, it doesnt solve the problem. being a big girl God intended and learning to make wise decisions on our own. sometimes when life gets so busy and stress, when everything seems falling apart, we simply hope to tt someone would take over as we hides ourselves in a nap. but learning to grow up and to be a grown up means facing the challenges and the greater responsibility to solve and trust God in crisis. someone shared with me before tt crisis is God way of getting your attention. i mean iits quite true and be thankful tt in are in a crisis because you know tt God loves you enough to want the best for you and knowing tt thru crisis, you will come out of it stronger. well, i guess its time to work on my data-entry, if not i will nv be able to finish them lah. haha, but thru the process of working and typing everyday, millions and millions of thoughts flow thru your mind and i know i seriously hate thinking. and i hate to have feelings i guess. sometimes i wondered, isnt it great to be without feelings, then i wont be sad, disappointed, hurt, angry. okay, what abt being happy? frankly, i can forsake tt if sadness, disappointment, HURTS, pains and anger can be taken away.talking abt God's love, i have yet own tt experience so dearly and close myself, but i know i will, in the pursuit and search for tt unconditional and unfailing love of Yours, one tt You alone promised to give. unworthy as im, i want to know tt You are God.yongling going on a break, isolation sounds good these days.
Labels: wandering
Monday, February 19, 2007
chinese new year.
well, for me i guess the older i get, the lesser place i go. and i guess as time goes by, CNY is just another public hols. i know tt's quite sad but wells...
another i went to meet my dear cg leader for abt 5years for breakfast ytd ((: and the prata he ordered is nice lah, yes trust him more. ya, waited for tt slowpoke for awhile then went visiting. left his house and went to my gan-ma house for visitaion. oh i simply just love her k. (: i want to meet her and my kor for dinner soon! love :D stay there for the longest time ever. but that's maybe cause its my fav place for visitation every year !!(: there's so many ppl! alot of relatives and ppl, makes me feel happy to be ard! i dont have so many relatives lah, esp now tt i only go one place for visitaion alrdy. )):
chinese new year is another occassion tt my whole family really miss the presence of my dad silently. i can always remb the times when i was young... every sunday, daddy will wake us up to do some stretching exercises, so fun. and CNY!, we will wake up early and change into our pretty pretty clothes and mum and dad will get ready for us to go greet them. i miss the assuring smile on his face and whenever he smiles, somehow i know no matter how bad things may seems, it will be alrights. ... one year and 5 months. i miss you. the laughter, the anger, the songs, the car, the numbers, the workshop, those supper, those nasi lemak, those teochew porridge, those presents, those times. those memories held so close.
met the ray calebs and all for supper. altho they didnt eat lah, thanks for their company still (: they are quite a special bunch of ppl. ha, remb i used to hang out with them, funny craps.
ah, its just another day. i want to watch movie and i cant wait for school to start soon and sat debrief i church and dinner ! ah, im feeling weird today, maybe cause i got a feeling someone is really pissed off with me and maybe if tt person could, he will run after me with chopper ): ):
i need a break man, really.
"give me oil in my lamp, keep me burning" okays tts random.
diff ppl are gg diff houses today. and open house on CNY kinda of thing is really very subjective one. haha, better dont self invite, like past years i open my house got alot of ppl. but to me its the more the merrier! haha, but maybe i love to have my cg ard most. anyway, i might be going to my dearest bigfreak house later then hopefully can head down to leow house.
okay, ah im realy not thinking properly. bummer.
"if my heart has grown cold,
there Your love will unfold.
walk in His strength alone (: " thanks daryl.
i was just wondering how you know i sounded "er" when its just a msg. ha, im thankful tho tt you always understand. (: even at times i really dont want to try to explain. hey, waffles 1st tues of march k? (:
MERV: im really. sorry, i really didnt mean it. forgive me can? i really wanted to go, really. trust me.
RAY CALEBS SARAH LUCILLE VERA VAL: hey hahas, for the 1st 5 names, thanks for meeting up for supper really, tho you all were so full and tired alrdy. sorry for ps-ing for dinner, and i guess both ways lah hor. ha *opps i see calebs staring at me, hahas* okay okay, sorry. (: thanks still, really really appreciate it lots k. we shall have a supper gang. for the last two names start with V, haha, thanks for opening up your house (: loves.
wells, yongling running away!
my heart has grown cold, will you unfold Your love soon...?
Sunday, February 18, 2007
okay new blogskin.
hey someone print my blog posts out for me pls (:
yongling gonna fly!
fly without wings!
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
i was reading blog posts and something caught my eyes.who is God to you?
i pondered for awhile and i kept silence.i guess i really cant answer that question. you will find all the model ans in the bible..God is love
God is the sheperd
God of all nations
God the father
God is king
God is salvation.
Merciful God
God of grace
God of peace
God of the poor, rich, heartbroken.
God the healer
God the strength
God is our tower
God is our shelter
...and the list goes on. but yongling is wondering, who is God really to her personally. and the question is who is God to you?"i dont know. i give up."through these few months of falling and learning to stand up stronger, i see myself still where i was broken. "hey come on lah, move on, look the world is gg fine and who cares abt ... ."- i keep telling myself. but strangely, as much as i thought i had move on due to those of self-psycho-ing, i stopped, look back and i see the same distance travelled, look ahead, i saw the same endless path and that when u came to realised tt, hey im still at the same point. same feelings, same tiredness, same emptiness, same unspoken tension, same scars, same broken joy, same restless-ness, same disrupted peace, same hurting thoughts. same silence, same rejections.God, who is God to me. no, God, i cant anymore, you stretch it to my limit alrdy. You made me, you should know me better. i cant move, im so stuck and and im looking everywhere but i just cant find your grace and i cant find myself. if You care enough, would you help me? i need to go away, somewhere to find that something. and to find that peace and strength to live and go on. if you care enough, hold me closer. i cant go any further alrdy, You stretch me to my limits. the limits that you set for me. You give and take away/.
whats left is my un-stretchable limits, my broken-ess, my joyless-ness, my broken and contrite heart, my hurting thoughts, my sadness, my sorrow, my hatred, my anger, my tirednes. if you love me enough, would you continue to use them for Your glory? and if You are kind enough, would You take over and lead the way, cause im lost.and God, if You love me enough, would You show it to me again and help my own that unfailing love you gave to me?yes, God, pls be unfailing. unfailing love, let it take over my heart.
lost for words and thoughts are drifting away.
Monday, February 12, 2007
looking ard the crowded train today/something caught my attention. i saw the saddest face today on my way to work. ...so downcast and joylessi wondered to myself, what has caused that face to be so sad, so down. i saw that tiredness in the eyes, and those pain and hurts left unsaid, not dealt with.i saw an unfamiliar face.why caused the changed? what i saw?my reflection.i need that joy and real-ness back..
God, which one is You? everything is breaking away.
Labels: falling//
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
i once was lostbut now am found.loveso amazingso divine. demands my soul my all.my joy is in You, Lordmy hope is in You, Lord.my strength is in You, Lord.in the midst of storms and fears.MY Lord knows the way.random thoughts of How great God is, and always will be.He wont fail us.
Saturday, February 03, 2007
"Precious Lord, reveal Your heart to me. "i need a retreat soon, yes. something tt ive been wanting to do for very long beside going on diet, haha. okay, on a more serious note, ya i need a retreat soon and the ideal place is somewhere near the beach. listening to the sound of waves, feeling the wonderful cooling breeze, staring at the vast sky and just be amazes at His creation. i need to go away..."dont you say why were the old days better, just because you are scare of the unknown. take my hand and walk..." working been okay and im ending work end of this month i think. and rumors has it, results coming out on fri. bummer. ministry has been getting okay and im getting better bit by bit.another decision i made, to let go and focus on my ministry and the more important things tt God has called me to. im re-priortising and im really letting go of things tt i really dont want to. but i know with His strength and joy in my life, i can move on much more.been walking ard shopping malls and roads alone after work and just thinking of life, my life. the more i think, the more i want to be convicted to do God's will for my life. i look back at what is happening in my life now, i thank God for answering those prayers i prayed last time, to love like He loves and to understand what it means for Him to love us so much. altho being in this process of moulding, i never regret praying those prayers and i just give thanks tt God is answering. when im weak then im strong. relationships with people, i want to commit it into His hands too, He knows better. its time to surrender and let go and grow from there. "Lord, help me to choose to forgive... what we say to each other in anger...the enemy searches for that and i ntime will destroy the blessed reunion Our Lord God has joined.so we must choose, choose to forgive.placing all pride aside and choose to forgive....when moments of misunderstandings and pain, with all silence can keep us apart.if only we open the door, His love will restore all brokeness in our hearts.so we must choose to forgive. "Lord, all im is yours.
im nothing, unworthy of your beautiful love.
yet You gave Your all
take me Lord, be on that throne.
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
life have been gettting to me man.
and life been fading away like nobody business.
as much as i have alot to say and alot of shout out thoughts, my vocab just doesnt allowed it to be form into sentences. i just hope that one day, when we look back, we will come to the understanding tt His plan is forever so perfect, and you know, we can never understand. and as i look back, i hope i can say, i struggled and wrestle much, and ive learn to love and to be loved,to forgive and to be forgived. ive fought the good fight, ive run the race, ive kept my faith.
in each situations, i know God has something to teach me. i know, and i hope i can be obedient enough to listen and to do what he says, i hope the assurance tt He knows best and things will get better in His control will sink deeply in me.
You are the savior, im the sinner.
sinner.
where can i flee from your presence...
when i let you go, a part of me died.
Labels: life as you called it.
Monday, February 26, 2007
okay, i know this is a bit lag, haha. but i still wnt to blog abt it. (:
actually love.
1stly, of course, i want to talk abt the committee :D
its been a good experience man, tho there have been many silent tension, we learnt from each other and we work things out (: im so glad to have this opportunity to serve with you all, really. <333
SARAH: hey twin, silen tension sounds really familiar eh? without sarah and her C-ness, i think planning wouldnt be effective and efficient! we are called to be and gathering ppl to it is simply fun and learning from each of them is great right? never regret agreeing to take up this challenge and serving with you.
NAT: hahahahahahaa, okay stop laughing (: nat, she's so funny, she's really nice. you can see from situations tt her expression changes and even when ppl cant get her point and you sense her slowy getting pissed, she is still nice. cause she always explain herself nicely and patiently across so tt we all can understand. cheeers dear.
VERA: its been another experience serving with you, and we are just too similiar. learning to be vulnerable and humble.
RENFRED: (: you know, without renfred's D-ness, things can be quite delay and without his thoughtfulness, we really can forget alot of small small details. and of course his constant reminder keeps us going! and i really appreciate hisconcern for each of us, he will reminds us tt its dinner time when we are so busy with work, he will provides ways to make things better when i( yes, me) get so screwed up with the whole deco thing. (:
ELLIOT: hey. you toille (: i remb i told you before that you nv once talk to me for the past years in church. haha, and yes im thnakful for this chance to work with you. elliot is yes patient and he is can be really calm even when the team is not agreeing upon each other point. haha, and we always get him to explain each other point, cause he can do it really calmy and seriously, of course clearly. and i so so love the CD you made :D
SHUNLI: this guy, man, i think he really can lessen the tension and make us all burst out in laughter lah. and next time when you see him silent and deep in thoughts, he must thinking of how to make us laugh. (: and he is really efficient in doing things, he is serious in his work lah, and haha, i dont know what to say, but he is really fun to work with. i can see his CG members nodding in agreement (:
and you know i really cant help but post this pic of my dear guy members, they are so ________ (fill in for youselves. ) HAHA (:
pretty aint they ? (:
the event was great, but the planning and learning process from each of them is greater. love it all (:
and actually love...is God dying on the cross for our sins, while we were still sinner.
let that truth sinks in you.
yongling will grow to be a Big girl, that dont whines.
Labels: actually loveeee.
Thursday, February 22, 2007
okay. im back to work. and yes, thanks hannah for editing your recent post, heh. you saved yourself from chopper (:4more working days and you will see me bugging ppl, hahas. no lah. anyways, working does change a person, in a way. as much as yongling knows she hates to grow up, she knows she has to. alot of things tt i used to hold onto, i have to learn to let go and look ahead. the fun, laughters, hangouts. to be independent, to think abt the future and think abt life. its no longer happy-go-lucky kinda when all you do is play and think abt future when only future comes. i guess the age of 18 is a stepping stone for alot of us, to grow to be more mature and think and speaks in wisdom. be it a working life, JC life, schooling life, we get mould in diff ways. for the past 18 years, we made mistakes and slowly learn from there, its sort of like trial and errors. till now as we start to be more on our own, we kinda of know whats right and whats the better next step to take. its nv easy and we still do make mistakes, but its a learning process and i shall call it the refining process.started reading this book, "big girls dont whine." (and yes daryl, big girl.) and how it talks abt as much as we yearn to be a big girl, we still carry on our little girls behavior of whining. and you know what, so what if we whine, it doesnt solve the problem. being a big girl God intended and learning to make wise decisions on our own. sometimes when life gets so busy and stress, when everything seems falling apart, we simply hope to tt someone would take over as we hides ourselves in a nap. but learning to grow up and to be a grown up means facing the challenges and the greater responsibility to solve and trust God in crisis. someone shared with me before tt crisis is God way of getting your attention. i mean iits quite true and be thankful tt in are in a crisis because you know tt God loves you enough to want the best for you and knowing tt thru crisis, you will come out of it stronger. well, i guess its time to work on my data-entry, if not i will nv be able to finish them lah. haha, but thru the process of working and typing everyday, millions and millions of thoughts flow thru your mind and i know i seriously hate thinking. and i hate to have feelings i guess. sometimes i wondered, isnt it great to be without feelings, then i wont be sad, disappointed, hurt, angry. okay, what abt being happy? frankly, i can forsake tt if sadness, disappointment, HURTS, pains and anger can be taken away.talking abt God's love, i have yet own tt experience so dearly and close myself, but i know i will, in the pursuit and search for tt unconditional and unfailing love of Yours, one tt You alone promised to give. unworthy as im, i want to know tt You are God.yongling going on a break, isolation sounds good these days.
Labels: wandering
Monday, February 19, 2007
chinese new year.
well, for me i guess the older i get, the lesser place i go. and i guess as time goes by, CNY is just another public hols. i know tt's quite sad but wells...
another i went to meet my dear cg leader for abt 5years for breakfast ytd ((: and the prata he ordered is nice lah, yes trust him more. ya, waited for tt slowpoke for awhile then went visiting. left his house and went to my gan-ma house for visitaion. oh i simply just love her k. (: i want to meet her and my kor for dinner soon! love :D stay there for the longest time ever. but that's maybe cause its my fav place for visitation every year !!(: there's so many ppl! alot of relatives and ppl, makes me feel happy to be ard! i dont have so many relatives lah, esp now tt i only go one place for visitaion alrdy. )):
chinese new year is another occassion tt my whole family really miss the presence of my dad silently. i can always remb the times when i was young... every sunday, daddy will wake us up to do some stretching exercises, so fun. and CNY!, we will wake up early and change into our pretty pretty clothes and mum and dad will get ready for us to go greet them. i miss the assuring smile on his face and whenever he smiles, somehow i know no matter how bad things may seems, it will be alrights. ... one year and 5 months. i miss you. the laughter, the anger, the songs, the car, the numbers, the workshop, those supper, those nasi lemak, those teochew porridge, those presents, those times. those memories held so close.
met the ray calebs and all for supper. altho they didnt eat lah, thanks for their company still (: they are quite a special bunch of ppl. ha, remb i used to hang out with them, funny craps.
ah, its just another day. i want to watch movie and i cant wait for school to start soon and sat debrief i church and dinner ! ah, im feeling weird today, maybe cause i got a feeling someone is really pissed off with me and maybe if tt person could, he will run after me with chopper ): ):
i need a break man, really.
"give me oil in my lamp, keep me burning" okays tts random.
diff ppl are gg diff houses today. and open house on CNY kinda of thing is really very subjective one. haha, better dont self invite, like past years i open my house got alot of ppl. but to me its the more the merrier! haha, but maybe i love to have my cg ard most. anyway, i might be going to my dearest bigfreak house later then hopefully can head down to leow house.
okay, ah im realy not thinking properly. bummer.
"if my heart has grown cold,
there Your love will unfold.
walk in His strength alone (: " thanks daryl.
i was just wondering how you know i sounded "er" when its just a msg. ha, im thankful tho tt you always understand. (: even at times i really dont want to try to explain. hey, waffles 1st tues of march k? (:
MERV: im really. sorry, i really didnt mean it. forgive me can? i really wanted to go, really. trust me.
RAY CALEBS SARAH LUCILLE VERA VAL: hey hahas, for the 1st 5 names, thanks for meeting up for supper really, tho you all were so full and tired alrdy. sorry for ps-ing for dinner, and i guess both ways lah hor. ha *opps i see calebs staring at me, hahas* okay okay, sorry. (: thanks still, really really appreciate it lots k. we shall have a supper gang. for the last two names start with V, haha, thanks for opening up your house (: loves.
wells, yongling running away!
my heart has grown cold, will you unfold Your love soon...?
Sunday, February 18, 2007
okay new blogskin.
hey someone print my blog posts out for me pls (:
yongling gonna fly!
fly without wings!
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
i was reading blog posts and something caught my eyes.who is God to you?
i pondered for awhile and i kept silence.i guess i really cant answer that question. you will find all the model ans in the bible..God is love
God is the sheperd
God of all nations
God the father
God is king
God is salvation.
Merciful God
God of grace
God of peace
God of the poor, rich, heartbroken.
God the healer
God the strength
God is our tower
God is our shelter
...and the list goes on. but yongling is wondering, who is God really to her personally. and the question is who is God to you?"i dont know. i give up."through these few months of falling and learning to stand up stronger, i see myself still where i was broken. "hey come on lah, move on, look the world is gg fine and who cares abt ... ."- i keep telling myself. but strangely, as much as i thought i had move on due to those of self-psycho-ing, i stopped, look back and i see the same distance travelled, look ahead, i saw the same endless path and that when u came to realised tt, hey im still at the same point. same feelings, same tiredness, same emptiness, same unspoken tension, same scars, same broken joy, same restless-ness, same disrupted peace, same hurting thoughts. same silence, same rejections.God, who is God to me. no, God, i cant anymore, you stretch it to my limit alrdy. You made me, you should know me better. i cant move, im so stuck and and im looking everywhere but i just cant find your grace and i cant find myself. if You care enough, would you help me? i need to go away, somewhere to find that something. and to find that peace and strength to live and go on. if you care enough, hold me closer. i cant go any further alrdy, You stretch me to my limits. the limits that you set for me. You give and take away/.
whats left is my un-stretchable limits, my broken-ess, my joyless-ness, my broken and contrite heart, my hurting thoughts, my sadness, my sorrow, my hatred, my anger, my tirednes. if you love me enough, would you continue to use them for Your glory? and if You are kind enough, would You take over and lead the way, cause im lost.and God, if You love me enough, would You show it to me again and help my own that unfailing love you gave to me?yes, God, pls be unfailing. unfailing love, let it take over my heart.
lost for words and thoughts are drifting away.
Monday, February 12, 2007
looking ard the crowded train today/something caught my attention. i saw the saddest face today on my way to work. ...so downcast and joylessi wondered to myself, what has caused that face to be so sad, so down. i saw that tiredness in the eyes, and those pain and hurts left unsaid, not dealt with.i saw an unfamiliar face.why caused the changed? what i saw?my reflection.i need that joy and real-ness back..
God, which one is You? everything is breaking away.
Labels: falling//
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
i once was lostbut now am found.loveso amazingso divine. demands my soul my all.my joy is in You, Lordmy hope is in You, Lord.my strength is in You, Lord.in the midst of storms and fears.MY Lord knows the way.random thoughts of How great God is, and always will be.He wont fail us.
Saturday, February 03, 2007
"Precious Lord, reveal Your heart to me. "i need a retreat soon, yes. something tt ive been wanting to do for very long beside going on diet, haha. okay, on a more serious note, ya i need a retreat soon and the ideal place is somewhere near the beach. listening to the sound of waves, feeling the wonderful cooling breeze, staring at the vast sky and just be amazes at His creation. i need to go away..."dont you say why were the old days better, just because you are scare of the unknown. take my hand and walk..." working been okay and im ending work end of this month i think. and rumors has it, results coming out on fri. bummer. ministry has been getting okay and im getting better bit by bit.another decision i made, to let go and focus on my ministry and the more important things tt God has called me to. im re-priortising and im really letting go of things tt i really dont want to. but i know with His strength and joy in my life, i can move on much more.been walking ard shopping malls and roads alone after work and just thinking of life, my life. the more i think, the more i want to be convicted to do God's will for my life. i look back at what is happening in my life now, i thank God for answering those prayers i prayed last time, to love like He loves and to understand what it means for Him to love us so much. altho being in this process of moulding, i never regret praying those prayers and i just give thanks tt God is answering. when im weak then im strong. relationships with people, i want to commit it into His hands too, He knows better. its time to surrender and let go and grow from there. "Lord, help me to choose to forgive... what we say to each other in anger...the enemy searches for that and i ntime will destroy the blessed reunion Our Lord God has joined.so we must choose, choose to forgive.placing all pride aside and choose to forgive....when moments of misunderstandings and pain, with all silence can keep us apart.if only we open the door, His love will restore all brokeness in our hearts.so we must choose to forgive. "Lord, all im is yours.
im nothing, unworthy of your beautiful love.
yet You gave Your all
take me Lord, be on that throne.
