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open sat today was quite fun and ya lah, Jabez and all his weirdness, oh maybe its coolness :)


didnt played flooraball today. just didnt want to play and i was sick lah. )):




recently ive been feeling quite away from the rest. like you know, busy and all and feel quite disconnected in a way too. but still quite fine lah. im meeting some of them real soon, PLS :D :D


and AG dinner tmr? YES

meeting JOSH and AGGIE on tues :D

i need to talk to JABEZ soon

oh and SHERN too :D

and i want to spend time with MY KOR soooooooooooooooonnn...




yes, i need to spend MORE time with God, love.




okay. im feeling sleepy and i think my blog getting more boring, ah can someone assure me its not,heh. you know sometimes i really dont know what to blog abt, there is really just so much i want to say, want to explain, want to sort out. but everytime i reach this window, i really dont know what to type. the things im going thru and feeling and experiencing just cannot be put right in words i guess and its really terrible cos i want to talk abt it, arghh. haha. wells. yongling weird, yucks. i think im starting to think tt im really weird and im quite crazy. EEEKkkkkk.







You are the sheperd

Giving what i could not afford

Leaving the many

You sought to find me low


*




here i know the power of forgivness

here i know the power of your blood.


*


Lord, all im, take them. help me to surrender ALL.

Labels: footprints of Christ

i woke up today feeling like i havent sleep at all. haha,maybe cos i went for supper ytd at 1oplus, came back at one plus 2, talk to beryl and slept at 3plus. and its really weird having her sleeping now and im blogging. and you know her? she sleep like no one business and i think if ever theres an earthquake, she also wont bother to wake up. "five more mins" she will say, all the times.
wells, decided to not go over for floorball today. maybe im just too tired and sick and ha, guess that reason. hais. wells wells. but im going church soon, like after beryl bathe and all haha.
alrights, had a good time at supper and then nice time really catching up at rays's house.
God is good, all the time. all.
okay, time to wake that piglet up, this is going to take forever, heh
and i got this really bad headache and this vomitting feeling just doesnt go away. im just too sick and stress man, get out of here. yucks

Labels: colours? next blogging time

1 peter 5:7 "..cast all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you."

-

i agree with my crappy partner that sometimes it really feels good to have a physical someone standing along side you and just being with you through all those tough times.

-

i felt that all along ive been that someone to certain ppl and past few months i been really burned out. and somehow i think ive sub-conciously been trying to find tt someone and knowing humans, ive been discouraged alot and thousands millions times. you know, its really discouraging and many a times, more than hurting.

-

today QT, yes the verse on top. 1peter 5:7. i was pretty shocked and somehow more encouraged. i remb i ask for asssurance and affirmation just ytd and i got it today. i read the online passage over and over again to let it sink deep in me. to me now, the One who will stand alongside, run alongside, be there to listen, be my company will be Him alone. and i shall hold onto that everlasting peace and love. not gonna say its easy, but... i will struggle more and on.

-

i have this very weird feeling everytime i... . ah, and then i reminds myself tt feelings are just feelings, shoudnt depend on them. like human, i would want someone ard too, but im really glad tt God has been my healer and He ALONE will continue to be. i will make sure of that. and keep my focus on Him. MP and all, pray for me for strength and that i will continue to love on k? (:

-

i belong to NO ONE, but God alone. im His, evermore. and i need to live for Him alone, tts assuring enough.

Labels: hurry hurry, moving on

-

i dont know, but i think im hurting more
maybe its just me.
i promise i wasnt disturbing him.

-

i dont know, sometimes life and situations just gets to me. what have i done? i dont understand.. you know something, im so confused. and i really really need a clear talk and i just want to scream. im trying to move on, im trying. so pls, stop reacting that way.

-

Lord, i pray tt you will draw me closer to you each moment. help me to always always react and respond in love, the love you called us to. you see how hard i struggle to move on, to love, to rejoice. Lord, help me.

-

im really very confused and yes confused now. God, what do you need me to do?
JESUS, hold me into your heart<3your heart <33.

Labels: love that remains

Labels: hold me and keep me.

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere


came back from floorball early. wasnt feeling too good, not becos of the fall, dont worry. (:im just relaxing now and listening to songs. heh.

ltp and core team meeting later (: somehow being busy with ministry keeps my from thinking too much and oh ya, i saw the same image today again. wells. ): ):

okay, i must be happier, and im so going to listen to the song : POP! goes my heart. cos it makes me happier. it really does. and somehow these days i enjoyed self-encouraging and self-talking, haha. maybe its the extreme of sadness. wells, POP goes my heart.

should go prepare liao, church awaiting me, i hope. heh. but then POP goes my heart. :D

Labels: way back.

alrights, had this NLT 1st session today. and it was great altho everyone was tired. (:

recently, i dont really have alot of things to blog abt. except that i went hospital that day and im on medication now. im not like seriously ill lah, but i got 2 appointments with the doc. one for scope and the other for hmmm i dont know also haha. wells, pray for me pls, not feeling very good. and yes, i should be drinking more water.

relationships with people. well, i dont know what to talk abt haha, but still yes relationships with people. i just feel like saying, im so human and im so so not perfect. and i would seek for all your grace and love in times when im too sensitive/ too insensitive. recently, i feel bombarded with what's going on btw myself and others and btw others and others. im juggling btw how i feel and how others feel and how i can make things better, for myself and others. and yes im struggling to love, there is just certain people in my lives that im learning and struggling to love, and some issues i have to learn to accept. examples shouldnt be name here tho. its been a long and painful struggle... to keep my eyes on Jesus and praising Him for the works of His hand.

every week, i struggle to love and stay joyful because of what have happened and..
...alrights move on, yongling.

wells, i think i need to sleep soon, cos tmr got floorball @ 9am. ah, i seriously pray tt i wont see and face the same thing again like i do every other week. *ouch, maybe more than ouchs*

i wrote my conversion testimony today, and this is the last part:

"Life didn’t really change for a better, but instead, it was filled with more trials and challenges along the way. There were many times when I really feel like giving up, when I keep on questioning God and myself. There were painful questions hanging in the air without answers. But behind all the heartaches and struggles, I know that I have a God to rely on, a God who accepts me for who I really am, a God who loves me unconditionally. "

Labels: take a look at my heart, wont you Lord

okay, new start again cool. for me, for my school, for my relationships, for family and for my walk.



was browsing through the past pics of youth ministry at farand photo blog. haha, so funny. and indeed we have all grown much much more (: thru those pains, hurts, falls, joys, friendships and alot more, we have all grown.



recently, life have took a turn. for me and for mummy and i believe for you too. (you, in general). im thanking God for more opportunities to talk and laugh with my kor now. i know God will fix this kinship and it will continue to be a kinship tt is ever close to my heart. and im quite excited about school but more excited abt the meeting tmr night :D and i need to meet some of you soon, real soon.



im getting drowsy, must be the medince, and yes pray tt i will remb my medicine regularly. and tt i will drink more water.



okay, this is one of the sistership tt i never fails to smile at:

BERYL

thanks girl, for the many times we quarrel and the many times we cry together,the many things we laughed together and the many times we just go thru things together. you have been a joy but nonetheless pain for me. (: hhaha, hugs dear.

okay and i saw this long ago photo, and i thought its really nice. the 3 guys captain of SFC now. i believe each of you were ard and called for a purpose. lets work together and lets trust God for a harvest. remb? PRAY SPORTS EVANGELISM. :D bucket of love, sweats, pains, joy. and sul, we are together in this too, for a reason. lets glorify His name fellow captains and servants of Christ. (: endure dearies.

LEONARD EUJIN TIMOTHY SULWYN YONGLING

beecause you chose the nails, we choose You. now and forever, amen

Labels: random-ness.

okay, at leng house. very long never blog alrdy lah. com spoil. so this is kinda of one in a million post again heh ((:

life's been hmmm ...well i guess. cant find another word to describe. its well but not very well. but at least a little better.

i mean like, come on lah get my focus right, on God and my ministry for His glory. im quite at a loss, of losing, losing so much and still is.

daddy. grief is such a weird thing. it comes and it go, but sometimes it stay for a longer period of time then usual and at times, it lingers ard you. or maybe, it never leaves me. i dont know, but recently ive been really stress and sometimes i just keep hoping and thinking, if only he is still ard, there will not be so many problems. i really really miss him. if only ive prayed harder...

kor. i... i dont know what to blog abt man. nothing much to be said now too tho. whatever it is, whoever it may concerns, he will always be MY kor. sometimes i really hope we could sit down and talk. but i know and you know? things changes over time. and i dont really care abt what others really thinks abt the spending more/less time anymore. i just pray tt this special kinship will not be a seasonal one and tt God will watch over this issue tt is close to my heart, really.

myself. i cant function properly. but i know i will one day. and i know one day when i look back at those hurts, pains and backstabing by others, i will grow more and i can praise God again. every week i go church, i struggle and it really hurts to see the image and things tt is the last thing tt i ever wish i will. i walk into cana hall and i pray, God take control over my mind. this will either break me or make me, so im gg to stay strong, i hope. and here, i plead, stop piercing me.


Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Ooh, ooh

Give me back my point of view
Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose


yes, losing, all for Christ.


keep me pls, in the deep of your grace.


shout outs:
amanda: !!! (: love you dearly still princess *hugs
jess: Cg still rocks and you too lah,heh. catch up soon, keep cg going ((:
kunquan: wei, thanks alot alot. :D stay strong.
rays: hey, miss catching up in random moments.
SFC: great job. keep shining.
garry: yes yes, will drink more water, haha. :)

Labels: LOSING ALL FOR CHRIST

thru tears&joy, i'll walk with You;
JESUS, you are my Lord and my life;
JESUS
no one who met Him ever stay the same.



yongling*
groovy;eighteen
28may89
STARS ROCK my world.
LOVE red & black
LOVE jellybeans
marshmallows
candies
chocolate
honeycrabs!
beach;life-LOVE peace.
life-verse.
hebrews 12:2-3
WEFC
under;contruction*
noMUSIC. no LIFE.


I LOVE GOD
if you dont agree with me then back off here.
and
yongling loves her kor & her ministry.

IDentified*


*beryl
*joanne
*lucille
*sarah
*vera
*yongling

open sat today was quite fun and ya lah, Jabez and all his weirdness, oh maybe its coolness :)


didnt played flooraball today. just didnt want to play and i was sick lah. )):




recently ive been feeling quite away from the rest. like you know, busy and all and feel quite disconnected in a way too. but still quite fine lah. im meeting some of them real soon, PLS :D :D


and AG dinner tmr? YES

meeting JOSH and AGGIE on tues :D

i need to talk to JABEZ soon

oh and SHERN too :D

and i want to spend time with MY KOR soooooooooooooooonnn...




yes, i need to spend MORE time with God, love.




okay. im feeling sleepy and i think my blog getting more boring, ah can someone assure me its not,heh. you know sometimes i really dont know what to blog abt, there is really just so much i want to say, want to explain, want to sort out. but everytime i reach this window, i really dont know what to type. the things im going thru and feeling and experiencing just cannot be put right in words i guess and its really terrible cos i want to talk abt it, arghh. haha. wells. yongling weird, yucks. i think im starting to think tt im really weird and im quite crazy. EEEKkkkkk.







You are the sheperd

Giving what i could not afford

Leaving the many

You sought to find me low


*




here i know the power of forgivness

here i know the power of your blood.


*


Lord, all im, take them. help me to surrender ALL.

Labels: footprints of Christ

i woke up today feeling like i havent sleep at all. haha,maybe cos i went for supper ytd at 1oplus, came back at one plus 2, talk to beryl and slept at 3plus. and its really weird having her sleeping now and im blogging. and you know her? she sleep like no one business and i think if ever theres an earthquake, she also wont bother to wake up. "five more mins" she will say, all the times.
wells, decided to not go over for floorball today. maybe im just too tired and sick and ha, guess that reason. hais. wells wells. but im going church soon, like after beryl bathe and all haha.
alrights, had a good time at supper and then nice time really catching up at rays's house.
God is good, all the time. all.
okay, time to wake that piglet up, this is going to take forever, heh
and i got this really bad headache and this vomitting feeling just doesnt go away. im just too sick and stress man, get out of here. yucks

Labels: colours? next blogging time

1 peter 5:7 "..cast all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you."

-

i agree with my crappy partner that sometimes it really feels good to have a physical someone standing along side you and just being with you through all those tough times.

-

i felt that all along ive been that someone to certain ppl and past few months i been really burned out. and somehow i think ive sub-conciously been trying to find tt someone and knowing humans, ive been discouraged alot and thousands millions times. you know, its really discouraging and many a times, more than hurting.

-

today QT, yes the verse on top. 1peter 5:7. i was pretty shocked and somehow more encouraged. i remb i ask for asssurance and affirmation just ytd and i got it today. i read the online passage over and over again to let it sink deep in me. to me now, the One who will stand alongside, run alongside, be there to listen, be my company will be Him alone. and i shall hold onto that everlasting peace and love. not gonna say its easy, but... i will struggle more and on.

-

i have this very weird feeling everytime i... . ah, and then i reminds myself tt feelings are just feelings, shoudnt depend on them. like human, i would want someone ard too, but im really glad tt God has been my healer and He ALONE will continue to be. i will make sure of that. and keep my focus on Him. MP and all, pray for me for strength and that i will continue to love on k? (:

-

i belong to NO ONE, but God alone. im His, evermore. and i need to live for Him alone, tts assuring enough.

Labels: hurry hurry, moving on

-

i dont know, but i think im hurting more
maybe its just me.
i promise i wasnt disturbing him.

-

i dont know, sometimes life and situations just gets to me. what have i done? i dont understand.. you know something, im so confused. and i really really need a clear talk and i just want to scream. im trying to move on, im trying. so pls, stop reacting that way.

-

Lord, i pray tt you will draw me closer to you each moment. help me to always always react and respond in love, the love you called us to. you see how hard i struggle to move on, to love, to rejoice. Lord, help me.

-

im really very confused and yes confused now. God, what do you need me to do?
JESUS, hold me into your heart<3your heart <33.

Labels: love that remains

Labels: hold me and keep me.

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere


came back from floorball early. wasnt feeling too good, not becos of the fall, dont worry. (:im just relaxing now and listening to songs. heh.

ltp and core team meeting later (: somehow being busy with ministry keeps my from thinking too much and oh ya, i saw the same image today again. wells. ): ):

okay, i must be happier, and im so going to listen to the song : POP! goes my heart. cos it makes me happier. it really does. and somehow these days i enjoyed self-encouraging and self-talking, haha. maybe its the extreme of sadness. wells, POP goes my heart.

should go prepare liao, church awaiting me, i hope. heh. but then POP goes my heart. :D

Labels: way back.

alrights, had this NLT 1st session today. and it was great altho everyone was tired. (:

recently, i dont really have alot of things to blog abt. except that i went hospital that day and im on medication now. im not like seriously ill lah, but i got 2 appointments with the doc. one for scope and the other for hmmm i dont know also haha. wells, pray for me pls, not feeling very good. and yes, i should be drinking more water.

relationships with people. well, i dont know what to talk abt haha, but still yes relationships with people. i just feel like saying, im so human and im so so not perfect. and i would seek for all your grace and love in times when im too sensitive/ too insensitive. recently, i feel bombarded with what's going on btw myself and others and btw others and others. im juggling btw how i feel and how others feel and how i can make things better, for myself and others. and yes im struggling to love, there is just certain people in my lives that im learning and struggling to love, and some issues i have to learn to accept. examples shouldnt be name here tho. its been a long and painful struggle... to keep my eyes on Jesus and praising Him for the works of His hand.

every week, i struggle to love and stay joyful because of what have happened and..
...alrights move on, yongling.

wells, i think i need to sleep soon, cos tmr got floorball @ 9am. ah, i seriously pray tt i wont see and face the same thing again like i do every other week. *ouch, maybe more than ouchs*

i wrote my conversion testimony today, and this is the last part:

"Life didn’t really change for a better, but instead, it was filled with more trials and challenges along the way. There were many times when I really feel like giving up, when I keep on questioning God and myself. There were painful questions hanging in the air without answers. But behind all the heartaches and struggles, I know that I have a God to rely on, a God who accepts me for who I really am, a God who loves me unconditionally. "

Labels: take a look at my heart, wont you Lord

okay, new start again cool. for me, for my school, for my relationships, for family and for my walk.



was browsing through the past pics of youth ministry at farand photo blog. haha, so funny. and indeed we have all grown much much more (: thru those pains, hurts, falls, joys, friendships and alot more, we have all grown.



recently, life have took a turn. for me and for mummy and i believe for you too. (you, in general). im thanking God for more opportunities to talk and laugh with my kor now. i know God will fix this kinship and it will continue to be a kinship tt is ever close to my heart. and im quite excited about school but more excited abt the meeting tmr night :D and i need to meet some of you soon, real soon.



im getting drowsy, must be the medince, and yes pray tt i will remb my medicine regularly. and tt i will drink more water.



okay, this is one of the sistership tt i never fails to smile at:

BERYL

thanks girl, for the many times we quarrel and the many times we cry together,the many things we laughed together and the many times we just go thru things together. you have been a joy but nonetheless pain for me. (: hhaha, hugs dear.

okay and i saw this long ago photo, and i thought its really nice. the 3 guys captain of SFC now. i believe each of you were ard and called for a purpose. lets work together and lets trust God for a harvest. remb? PRAY SPORTS EVANGELISM. :D bucket of love, sweats, pains, joy. and sul, we are together in this too, for a reason. lets glorify His name fellow captains and servants of Christ. (: endure dearies.

LEONARD EUJIN TIMOTHY SULWYN YONGLING

beecause you chose the nails, we choose You. now and forever, amen

Labels: random-ness.

okay, at leng house. very long never blog alrdy lah. com spoil. so this is kinda of one in a million post again heh ((:

life's been hmmm ...well i guess. cant find another word to describe. its well but not very well. but at least a little better.

i mean like, come on lah get my focus right, on God and my ministry for His glory. im quite at a loss, of losing, losing so much and still is.

daddy. grief is such a weird thing. it comes and it go, but sometimes it stay for a longer period of time then usual and at times, it lingers ard you. or maybe, it never leaves me. i dont know, but recently ive been really stress and sometimes i just keep hoping and thinking, if only he is still ard, there will not be so many problems. i really really miss him. if only ive prayed harder...

kor. i... i dont know what to blog abt man. nothing much to be said now too tho. whatever it is, whoever it may concerns, he will always be MY kor. sometimes i really hope we could sit down and talk. but i know and you know? things changes over time. and i dont really care abt what others really thinks abt the spending more/less time anymore. i just pray tt this special kinship will not be a seasonal one and tt God will watch over this issue tt is close to my heart, really.

myself. i cant function properly. but i know i will one day. and i know one day when i look back at those hurts, pains and backstabing by others, i will grow more and i can praise God again. every week i go church, i struggle and it really hurts to see the image and things tt is the last thing tt i ever wish i will. i walk into cana hall and i pray, God take control over my mind. this will either break me or make me, so im gg to stay strong, i hope. and here, i plead, stop piercing me.


Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Ooh, ooh

Give me back my point of view
Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose


yes, losing, all for Christ.


keep me pls, in the deep of your grace.


shout outs:
amanda: !!! (: love you dearly still princess *hugs
jess: Cg still rocks and you too lah,heh. catch up soon, keep cg going ((:
kunquan: wei, thanks alot alot. :D stay strong.
rays: hey, miss catching up in random moments.
SFC: great job. keep shining.
garry: yes yes, will drink more water, haha. :)

Labels: LOSING ALL FOR CHRIST