Tuesday, January 09, 2007
1st day of work today was okay. 1st, i had to figure out where's tt place and thanks to sam for helping too. ha, reach there alittle early and things was pretty okay, the ppl there are quite nice and friendly. i dont know alot of them cause im in a room with the asst manager so like hardly can talk to the others. im helping out with some accounts stuff, man, its ALOT of figures lah, i almost go blind can. im tired now.but well, working alone mah, so the feeling is quite weird. and most of the time im alone in the room. guess its easier for satan to attack my mind and thoughts while im alone. i really feel so weird and i think i feel really sad. somehow i had this super abandoned feeling and the feelings just sucks, and it kinda spoil my whole day. )): i think maybe its insecurities, and i hate insecurities, really. i used to feel so secure one can )): need to find security in Jesus again, i really need to. if nt i think i will go crazy and depress lah.): i miss watching movies!and esp with my movie partner! i wan to watch movies! and i want to go out with the ppl* i really want to! ): pls pray for me k? i really need to be happy, you know. and pray tt God will fill my thoughts with more of Him*
insecurities go away NOW. you are never welcome here or even anywhere!
yongling really wants to go closer with God and get those thoughts outta her mind. let her rant and bite pls! and yongling just wants to be loved again. pls?
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
1st day of work today was okay. 1st, i had to figure out where's tt place and thanks to sam for helping too. ha, reach there alittle early and things was pretty okay, the ppl there are quite nice and friendly. i dont know alot of them cause im in a room with the asst manager so like hardly can talk to the others. im helping out with some accounts stuff, man, its ALOT of figures lah, i almost go blind can. im tired now.but well, working alone mah, so the feeling is quite weird. and most of the time im alone in the room. guess its easier for satan to attack my mind and thoughts while im alone. i really feel so weird and i think i feel really sad. somehow i had this super abandoned feeling and the feelings just sucks, and it kinda spoil my whole day. )): i think maybe its insecurities, and i hate insecurities, really. i used to feel so secure one can )): need to find security in Jesus again, i really need to. if nt i think i will go crazy and depress lah.): i miss watching movies!and esp with my movie partner! i wan to watch movies! and i want to go out with the ppl* i really want to! ): pls pray for me k? i really need to be happy, you know. and pray tt God will fill my thoughts with more of Him*
insecurities go away NOW. you are never welcome here or even anywhere!
yongling really wants to go closer with God and get those thoughts outta her mind. let her rant and bite pls! and yongling just wants to be loved again. pls?
