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i was reading blog posts and something caught my eyes.


i pondered for awhile and i kept silence.
i guess i really cant answer that question.
you will find all the model ans in the bible..
...

and the list goes on.

but yongling is wondering, who is God really to her personally. and the question is who is God to you?

"i dont know. i give up."

through these few months of falling and learning to stand up stronger, i see myself still where i was broken. "hey come on lah, move on, look the world is gg fine and who cares abt ... ."- i keep telling myself. but strangely, as much as i thought i had move on due to those of self-psycho-ing, i stopped, look back and i see the same distance travelled, look ahead, i saw the same endless path and that when u came to realised tt, hey im still at the same point. same feelings, same tiredness, same emptiness, same unspoken tension, same scars, same broken joy, same restless-ness, same disrupted peace, same hurting thoughts. same silence, same rejections.

God, who is God to me. no, God, i cant anymore, you stretch it to my limit alrdy. You made me, you should know me better. i cant move, im so stuck and and im looking everywhere but i just cant find your grace and i cant find myself. if You care enough, would you help me? i need to go away, somewhere to find that something. and to find that peace and strength to live and go on. if you care enough, hold me closer.

i cant go any further alrdy, You stretch me to my limits. the limits that you set for me.

whats left is my un-stretchable limits, my broken-ess, my joyless-ness, my broken and contrite heart, my hurting thoughts, my sadness, my sorrow, my hatred, my anger, my tirednes. if you love me enough, would you continue to use them for Your glory?

and if You are kind enough, would You take over and lead the way, cause im lost.

and God, if You love me enough, would You show it to me again and help my own that unfailing love you gave to me?

thru tears&joy, i'll walk with You;
JESUS, you are my Lord and my life;
JESUS
no one who met Him ever stay the same.



yongling*
groovy;eighteen
28may89
STARS ROCK my world.
LOVE red & black
LOVE jellybeans
marshmallows
candies
chocolate
honeycrabs!
beach;life-LOVE peace.
life-verse.
hebrews 12:2-3
WEFC
under;contruction*
noMUSIC. no LIFE.


I LOVE GOD
if you dont agree with me then back off here.
and
yongling loves her kor & her ministry.

IDentified*


*beryl
*joanne
*lucille
*sarah
*vera
*yongling

i was reading blog posts and something caught my eyes.


i pondered for awhile and i kept silence.
i guess i really cant answer that question.
you will find all the model ans in the bible..
...

and the list goes on.

but yongling is wondering, who is God really to her personally. and the question is who is God to you?

"i dont know. i give up."

through these few months of falling and learning to stand up stronger, i see myself still where i was broken. "hey come on lah, move on, look the world is gg fine and who cares abt ... ."- i keep telling myself. but strangely, as much as i thought i had move on due to those of self-psycho-ing, i stopped, look back and i see the same distance travelled, look ahead, i saw the same endless path and that when u came to realised tt, hey im still at the same point. same feelings, same tiredness, same emptiness, same unspoken tension, same scars, same broken joy, same restless-ness, same disrupted peace, same hurting thoughts. same silence, same rejections.

God, who is God to me. no, God, i cant anymore, you stretch it to my limit alrdy. You made me, you should know me better. i cant move, im so stuck and and im looking everywhere but i just cant find your grace and i cant find myself. if You care enough, would you help me? i need to go away, somewhere to find that something. and to find that peace and strength to live and go on. if you care enough, hold me closer.

i cant go any further alrdy, You stretch me to my limits. the limits that you set for me.

whats left is my un-stretchable limits, my broken-ess, my joyless-ness, my broken and contrite heart, my hurting thoughts, my sadness, my sorrow, my hatred, my anger, my tirednes. if you love me enough, would you continue to use them for Your glory?

and if You are kind enough, would You take over and lead the way, cause im lost.

and God, if You love me enough, would You show it to me again and help my own that unfailing love you gave to me?