Thursday, February 22, 2007
okay. im back to work. and yes, thanks hannah for editing your recent post, heh. you saved yourself from chopper (:4more working days and you will see me bugging ppl, hahas. no lah. anyways, working does change a person, in a way. as much as yongling knows she hates to grow up, she knows she has to. alot of things tt i used to hold onto, i have to learn to let go and look ahead. the fun, laughters, hangouts. to be independent, to think abt the future and think abt life. its no longer happy-go-lucky kinda when all you do is play and think abt future when only future comes. i guess the age of 18 is a stepping stone for alot of us, to grow to be more mature and think and speaks in wisdom. be it a working life, JC life, schooling life, we get mould in diff ways. for the past 18 years, we made mistakes and slowly learn from there, its sort of like trial and errors. till now as we start to be more on our own, we kinda of know whats right and whats the better next step to take. its nv easy and we still do make mistakes, but its a learning process and i shall call it the refining process.started reading this book, "big girls dont whine." (and yes daryl, big girl.) and how it talks abt as much as we yearn to be a big girl, we still carry on our little girls behavior of whining. and you know what, so what if we whine, it doesnt solve the problem. being a big girl God intended and learning to make wise decisions on our own. sometimes when life gets so busy and stress, when everything seems falling apart, we simply hope to tt someone would take over as we hides ourselves in a nap. but learning to grow up and to be a grown up means facing the challenges and the greater responsibility to solve and trust God in crisis. someone shared with me before tt crisis is God way of getting your attention. i mean iits quite true and be thankful tt in are in a crisis because you know tt God loves you enough to want the best for you and knowing tt thru crisis, you will come out of it stronger. well, i guess its time to work on my data-entry, if not i will nv be able to finish them lah. haha, but thru the process of working and typing everyday, millions and millions of thoughts flow thru your mind and i know i seriously hate thinking. and i hate to have feelings i guess. sometimes i wondered, isnt it great to be without feelings, then i wont be sad, disappointed, hurt, angry. okay, what abt being happy? frankly, i can forsake tt if sadness, disappointment, HURTS, pains and anger can be taken away.talking abt God's love, i have yet own tt experience so dearly and close myself, but i know i will, in the pursuit and search for tt unconditional and unfailing love of Yours, one tt You alone promised to give. unworthy as im, i want to know tt You are God.yongling going on a break, isolation sounds good these days.
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Thursday, February 22, 2007
okay. im back to work. and yes, thanks hannah for editing your recent post, heh. you saved yourself from chopper (:4more working days and you will see me bugging ppl, hahas. no lah. anyways, working does change a person, in a way. as much as yongling knows she hates to grow up, she knows she has to. alot of things tt i used to hold onto, i have to learn to let go and look ahead. the fun, laughters, hangouts. to be independent, to think abt the future and think abt life. its no longer happy-go-lucky kinda when all you do is play and think abt future when only future comes. i guess the age of 18 is a stepping stone for alot of us, to grow to be more mature and think and speaks in wisdom. be it a working life, JC life, schooling life, we get mould in diff ways. for the past 18 years, we made mistakes and slowly learn from there, its sort of like trial and errors. till now as we start to be more on our own, we kinda of know whats right and whats the better next step to take. its nv easy and we still do make mistakes, but its a learning process and i shall call it the refining process.started reading this book, "big girls dont whine." (and yes daryl, big girl.) and how it talks abt as much as we yearn to be a big girl, we still carry on our little girls behavior of whining. and you know what, so what if we whine, it doesnt solve the problem. being a big girl God intended and learning to make wise decisions on our own. sometimes when life gets so busy and stress, when everything seems falling apart, we simply hope to tt someone would take over as we hides ourselves in a nap. but learning to grow up and to be a grown up means facing the challenges and the greater responsibility to solve and trust God in crisis. someone shared with me before tt crisis is God way of getting your attention. i mean iits quite true and be thankful tt in are in a crisis because you know tt God loves you enough to want the best for you and knowing tt thru crisis, you will come out of it stronger. well, i guess its time to work on my data-entry, if not i will nv be able to finish them lah. haha, but thru the process of working and typing everyday, millions and millions of thoughts flow thru your mind and i know i seriously hate thinking. and i hate to have feelings i guess. sometimes i wondered, isnt it great to be without feelings, then i wont be sad, disappointed, hurt, angry. okay, what abt being happy? frankly, i can forsake tt if sadness, disappointment, HURTS, pains and anger can be taken away.talking abt God's love, i have yet own tt experience so dearly and close myself, but i know i will, in the pursuit and search for tt unconditional and unfailing love of Yours, one tt You alone promised to give. unworthy as im, i want to know tt You are God.yongling going on a break, isolation sounds good these days.
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