Wednesday, March 28, 2007
i dont know. besides all the whys questions, i think im kinda bombarded with all the whats?! reactions and questions. i dont know whether to say its a blessing or not. yes, im glad i got help and all, but somehow i... i dont know. seriously, i dont know how i should react and respond most of the times, tt's y i kept quiet. cos i know i will flare up in a way.
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i think maybe im just really discouraged. ya, perhaps... God ways are ways tt i can never understand, never see. understanding is such a weird thing, some ppl just dont have that element, and some have in certain situations. perhaps its a gift too, gift that i think maybe you and i will never understand. i think there are alot of areas in my life that need to be restore and clear up. sometimes i really want to go straight up and say, i had enough. but in order to do that, someone has to somehow bother to listen. i never have tt chance to anyways.
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broken-ness is such a special thing. did i just say special? ha, cos i think tt's what makes me special all the times. broken-ness. i remb there's a period of time that lucille always use the phrase "broken and moulded". yepps, perhaps so.
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draining. yes, this issue with some of you is draining all my joy, strength, energy, passion and love away man. sometimes i felt and i ask myself, is it really just me? and my fault and like my problem, and like the things i do? man, enough craps, give me a chance to move on lah. yes, ppl would say like, aiya let go and just carry on with life. i know that too, 101% knowledge of tt. haha, okay, im sick of tired of saying the same thing over and over again. okay, next. you go reflect yourself,cos i always do self-reflection.
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God, i really struggle to love.
You alone sees that heart that keeps trying.
God, fill me again, i proclaim now tt i really cant anymore after so long of discouragement
and failures again and again.
God, i failed.
take me. take me as You find me, broken and drained.
-let me know that through it all You will never let me go.
yongling needs assurance and affirmation
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
i dont know. besides all the whys questions, i think im kinda bombarded with all the whats?! reactions and questions. i dont know whether to say its a blessing or not. yes, im glad i got help and all, but somehow i... i dont know. seriously, i dont know how i should react and respond most of the times, tt's y i kept quiet. cos i know i will flare up in a way.
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i think maybe im just really discouraged. ya, perhaps... God ways are ways tt i can never understand, never see. understanding is such a weird thing, some ppl just dont have that element, and some have in certain situations. perhaps its a gift too, gift that i think maybe you and i will never understand. i think there are alot of areas in my life that need to be restore and clear up. sometimes i really want to go straight up and say, i had enough. but in order to do that, someone has to somehow bother to listen. i never have tt chance to anyways.
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broken-ness is such a special thing. did i just say special? ha, cos i think tt's what makes me special all the times. broken-ness. i remb there's a period of time that lucille always use the phrase "broken and moulded". yepps, perhaps so.
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draining. yes, this issue with some of you is draining all my joy, strength, energy, passion and love away man. sometimes i felt and i ask myself, is it really just me? and my fault and like my problem, and like the things i do? man, enough craps, give me a chance to move on lah. yes, ppl would say like, aiya let go and just carry on with life. i know that too, 101% knowledge of tt. haha, okay, im sick of tired of saying the same thing over and over again. okay, next. you go reflect yourself,cos i always do self-reflection.
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God, i really struggle to love.
You alone sees that heart that keeps trying.
God, fill me again, i proclaim now tt i really cant anymore after so long of discouragement
and failures again and again.
God, i failed.
take me. take me as You find me, broken and drained.
-let me know that through it all You will never let me go.
yongling needs assurance and affirmation
