Friday, March 23, 2007
alrights, had this NLT 1st session today. and it was great altho everyone was tired. (:recently, i dont really have alot of things to blog abt. except that i went hospital that day and im on medication now. im not like seriously ill lah, but i got 2 appointments with the doc. one for scope and the other for hmmm i dont know also haha. wells, pray for me pls, not feeling very good. and yes, i should be drinking more water. relationships with people. well, i dont know what to talk abt haha, but still yes relationships with people. i just feel like saying, im so human and im so so not perfect. and i would seek for all your grace and love in times when im too sensitive/ too insensitive. recently, i feel bombarded with what's going on btw myself and others and btw others and others. im juggling btw how i feel and how others feel and how i can make things better, for myself and others. and yes im struggling to love, there is just certain people in my lives that im learning and struggling to love, and some issues i have to learn to accept. examples shouldnt be name here tho. its been a long and painful struggle... to keep my eyes on Jesus and praising Him for the works of His hand. every week, i struggle to love and stay joyful because of what have happened and.....alrights move on, yongling.wells, i think i need to sleep soon, cos tmr got floorball @ 9am. ah, i seriously pray tt i wont see and face the same thing again like i do every other week. *ouch, maybe more than ouchs* i wrote my conversion testimony today, and this is the last part:
"Life didn’t really change for a better, but instead, it was filled with more trials and challenges along the way. There were many times when I really feel like giving up, when I keep on questioning God and myself. There were painful questions hanging in the air without answers. But behind all the heartaches and struggles, I know that I have a God to rely on, a God who accepts me for who I really am, a God who loves me unconditionally. "so please, dont let the fire die, cos i can still see the sparks of His love in your eyes.
Labels: take a look at my heart, wont you Lord
Friday, March 23, 2007
alrights, had this NLT 1st session today. and it was great altho everyone was tired. (:recently, i dont really have alot of things to blog abt. except that i went hospital that day and im on medication now. im not like seriously ill lah, but i got 2 appointments with the doc. one for scope and the other for hmmm i dont know also haha. wells, pray for me pls, not feeling very good. and yes, i should be drinking more water. relationships with people. well, i dont know what to talk abt haha, but still yes relationships with people. i just feel like saying, im so human and im so so not perfect. and i would seek for all your grace and love in times when im too sensitive/ too insensitive. recently, i feel bombarded with what's going on btw myself and others and btw others and others. im juggling btw how i feel and how others feel and how i can make things better, for myself and others. and yes im struggling to love, there is just certain people in my lives that im learning and struggling to love, and some issues i have to learn to accept. examples shouldnt be name here tho. its been a long and painful struggle... to keep my eyes on Jesus and praising Him for the works of His hand. every week, i struggle to love and stay joyful because of what have happened and.....alrights move on, yongling.wells, i think i need to sleep soon, cos tmr got floorball @ 9am. ah, i seriously pray tt i wont see and face the same thing again like i do every other week. *ouch, maybe more than ouchs* i wrote my conversion testimony today, and this is the last part:
"Life didn’t really change for a better, but instead, it was filled with more trials and challenges along the way. There were many times when I really feel like giving up, when I keep on questioning God and myself. There were painful questions hanging in the air without answers. But behind all the heartaches and struggles, I know that I have a God to rely on, a God who accepts me for who I really am, a God who loves me unconditionally. "so please, dont let the fire die, cos i can still see the sparks of His love in your eyes.
Labels: take a look at my heart, wont you Lord
